Bibi & Chub Chub New home

After 2 hours, we finally managed to get everything up in place. This is Bibi & Chubchub's new home :) They actually have a lot of space to run about but still, these two imps just wanna escape! Chub chub tried to escape three times during the 1st day when we just set up his new home.

Look, this is chubchub out of the cage!!!I supposed he a little scared and tired after being active for several minutes, running about the room. He simply curls himself up like a bird resting on his nest right at the corner near his new home!!! OMG, he is damn active, and we have a hard time catching him!

Chub Chub's smug look, having able to escape!!! See, damn naughty fellow. He simply stares at me. He is not scared of me lor, always ignoring me !!!! Chubchub runs about his cage whenever i tried to feed himwhile Bibi is more obedient and he eats whatever i feed him with.

While Chub chub is the hyperactive imp, Bibi likes to slack and snuggle after his meals. He would usually spawn across the mat, like the way he did in the picture on your left. He is less active, unlike chub chub. Also, Bibi usually eats lesser than Chub chub, who eats and eats non-stop. I guess this draws back to Chub chub being very active, running about makes him hungry and that explains the reason for eating more ba. But, he is still fatter and bigger in size as compared to Bibi. Bibi, please eat more, u 're too tiny!!!!

Bibi looks so cute drinking water.

Cute and shy little imps

Long weekends are always fun and relaxing. Not to mention that they always bring joy and time for adventures!!!

On our visit to Pets Gantry at AMK ave 1 last saturaday, we had undertake a meaningful task and a brand new experience which will train us to become responsible 'parents'. We have adopted a pair of junior bunnies!!!! They are super cute but mischievous. Look below!!!!

There are a total of 5 bunnies available in the pet shop. I fell in love with this white bunny at first sight and hence i brought him home. As for the brown one.... my little whitie is very shy, hence the pet shop owner suggest we buy two so that both of them would settle down easily and more quickly. The brownie is my whitie gd friend, so i brought him back too.

Bibi drinking water from the bowl. Hee, damn cute

Upon setting up their cage, i realised that my white bunny is much smaller than the brown bunny, who is chubby and bigger in size. Hence i named the white one Bibi and the brown one Chubchub. Also, Bibi is dman shy and timid while Chub chub is adventurous and naughty.

This is Chub Chub, trying to find his way out of the cage!!!!

Headset Woes

Here i am again... I guess you must have realised i blogged whenever i'm unhappy about certain things.

This time, it's about headset which i would be required to use from now on. There i am, trying very hard to stay on this job but why does things have to happen the wrong way EVERYTIME. It simply puts me off. Not to deny, I am a very particular person and anything that doesnt pleases me, it sets off my anger and displeasure.

THIS TIME ROUND, i am not happy because i dun feel at all comfortable wearing this stupid headset. SEE BELOW

This stupid headset just puts me off for the day, although it should be a happy day for me since i will be able to paint the town red tonight. BUT NOW, i'm moody and irritated. The right side of this headset rest on my temper, just above my ear. BUT it makes my hair messy. Next, when i pull it off, i'll pull some strands of hair off my scalp as well. So wat, in no time, i'll be a young bald lady? Crazy arh, my scalp already has lots of problem... this just adds on to my problem. BTW, i got sensitive scalp and it creates hair loss problem in me. Now what, this headset makes my problem worse!!!

Bloody hell, holy shit, fucking hell!!!!! PArdon me for these crude words but i simply cant behave in a good manner now! I die die must throw letter next week. P.S if this company treats me well, perhaps i can still accept wearing headset but since it doesnt, y the sacrifices? no bidding needed, :P:P:P:P. THIS iS ME!!!!

Boredom can drive one crazy

Guess how am i while writing this post? Extremely free and bored!!!

Yes, here i am staring blankly in front of my computer., totally lost on what i am supposed to do. This is not the first day i had nothing on hand. In fact, it happens all the time.

Sometimes, i keep asking myself: what the hell am i staying on for this job? experience? $$$?
Yes, it is all about $$$. i tend to be swayed easily by $$$ and the fear of being jobless for months forced me to stay on. However, prolong staying on creates an emotionally unstable me. I started asking myself the following reason:

1) Am i incapable of doing other stuff other than photocopying and scanning documents?
2) Why wasnt i given the chance to do publications or even assist in the write-ups?
3) Is my English terrible? so tt's y i'm deprive of the chance to render help?

Without any work to do, building sandcastles in the air becomes a daily routine that helps me to fill up the emptiness and turns clock to the timing i look forward to every day.

Simply to say, the unoccupied me is letting my imagination running wild. Searching for the right words to describe me, i would say I'm sinking into depression soon man!!! A cauldron of mixed emotions that contrives low moral, depression, low confidence level and desperating brews strongly within.

I'm lost and does not know what am i supposed to do. god, life sucks

They are big BULLIES

A glance at the title, you would have guess what am i going to blog about.... MAKING COMPLAINTS. That's right.

My team members often give me work that are tedious and time consuming. Most importantly, i guess they themselves cant stand doing those stuff themselves either.
Moreover, as i am a newcomer who is free most of the time, they simply chunk their tedious task to me!!!

First, my manager asked me to print 200 copies of event calandar for Anchorpoint ASHR. Another 200 copies of class dairies and 75 copies of god knows what printout.

Then, my colleague also asked me to do scanning for her. WHy is this tedious? Well those documents which were to be scan are worksheets and record books of students. And i need to do full colour scanning. Also, she wants me to exclude those pages that are blank. As the photocopiers are unable to do full coloured scanning, I would have to use the manual Epson scanner - meaning i have to scan page by page using the scanner and obtain the sof copy via computer INDIVIDUALLY. This makes my job harder. Gosh, the worksheet comes in booklet forms and i need to scan not just a copy but many copies!!!

To top it all of, another colleague of mine asked me to do a tabulation for the ASHR award recipients. He gave me a set of namelist, in hardcopy form, a total of 33 pages!!!!
I was asked to sort according to the districts, the grade level, subjects and the level of advancement beyond their school level. What drives my work harder is..... he nv do any sorting. So it will go like this - 1st name from central, advance grade 3, subject is English, 2nd down the list from northwest, advance grade 3, subject is Maths, 3rd name down the list from central again, advance grade 3, subject is English and so on. Imagine the number of different cat i need to sort and count the headcounts down the list manually. I almost collasped in torment.

Finally, i finished the above task in a weeks time, given one of the day is a PH and i also need to handle my general enquiries. I thought the worst was over. THEN, yesterday, he approached me with the same set of namelist, this time he wants the data that shows the headcount on the different school grade level, the district of the center they are from and the year of advancement!!! That sickening, churning sensation deep in the pit of my stomach was a cooktail of hatred, anger and fear. Hatred because i hate tedious stuff, anger because i'm angry doing all these work that has nothing to do with branding and fear cos he is my senior and i need to complete that no matter what.

I went home, feeling extremely unjustified and upset. Though i keep telling myself that i need to tolerate and stay on until i find another job, i simply couldnt make myself do it. Imagine i got to drag myself to work everyday...... the feeling sucks to the core. i was caught in fears of being jobless but hate to stay on this job. What am i supposed to do? dunno, see how ba....

More that comes by

Working in a very Japanese cultural environment is driving me crazy. Every morning, i simply drag myself to work, feeling sick and unhappy. Personally, I’m not a very disciplined person who loves and resigned to rules well. Hence, i am in big trouble when i stepped foot into a company full of rules and regulation.

On the first day, i was shocked by their "daily briefing" that took place once the clock strikes 9am. Subsequently, it become very irritating for me to hear the stupid clock calling us to gather for attention. I was being faced with this question "Gosh am i in the army?", what was i doing here anyway. I was struggling with the agonizing mixture of feelings of reluctance, fear & distrust simply not only by this briefing but also the fact that everyone must report within their team what their task and schedule are for the day! I could believed it man, simply ridiculous.

During this briefing, the team members would also constantly report about their center visit. (i'm under the field instruction and development team). These reports, to me are nothing but a load of rubbish since most of them are just updating us what they have learned or observed during their center visit. After the 1st week, i was feeling sick and tired of this company. I wouldnt need to know each other's self reflection do i ? I mean, why the need?

Emotional Hunger

To boost my moral level my job has lowered over the past month, I made a trip to the library and borrowed a couple of self help books. One of the books which I found it especially meaningful and entertaining is “Are you good enough?”. The first section of this book has enticed me with the following phrase “Are you hungry for love?”. It explains that people experiencing patterns of spells of comfort are attempting to fill up their inner sense of emptiness.

Their eating habit conforms to satisfy a feeling of emotional hunger. People developed this emotional hunger because they lack real love from their families or close kin. It is an intriguing discovery as I finally understand why people who is angry, sad or is mending a broken heart eats a lot!!! Lack of love…. Will make us indulge in food spree.

A silly mistake

Recently, lots of unhappiness crept up in me. I was landed in a stupid job that allows me to learn nothing but doing only ‘reception duties’ and being monitored as if I am a terrorist that will destroy their long established reputation within minutes. And what makes me say so and why….

First thing first - during the interview, I was told that if I am offered the job, it will be a one-year contract position and that I will be part of the brand team of the regional division. Two weeks later, the HR called and offered me this position. Of cos, being a fresh graduate as a mass com student, I was elated and more than eager to start work. But the HR told me that my superior will be out of town and will only me back during 1st week of August. I agreed with this term since I will be in a no gain nor lose situation. The HR personnel further added on that she will call me again once the contract is ready.

Hence, I waited patiently for another 2 weeks before calling up again. I was relieved that the contract is ready but she hit me with a bad news- I was no longer with the regional brand team but under the “Field instruction team” with she convinced me that the SG brand team is part of this department. I had no choice but to accept.

Working life as a brand associate begins on 12 August 2008. I thought I can finally do away with the silly punch card system as that practice reminds me of working in factories or in part time positions where they need to account for the number of hours you work to generate your pay! However, the HR approached me with the punch card and I was told to practice THIS DREADFUL THING AGAIN.

That’s not all. Guess what? All the other staff is not required to punch card, making me feel like an outsider.

Next thing- all the staff’s card access has their photo printed on it except me again!!!

As I am taking charge of handling the entire general enquires, I am required to fill up an enquiry record sheet after answering each mail and calls. AND all these records must be PRINTED OUT every week for the GM and my superior to read through. Sick to the CORE. I dun understand y the need since I will draft a copy of my reply to my superior and will get her approval before replying the senders. Moreover, I will also include her in the BCC list so that she will receive a copy of my reply!Do you agree that I am heavily monitored? I seriously am not happy about it.

Furthermore, I didn’t even do a stitch of branding activities from Aug till now. This is the 8th week I’ve been working here and all I did was a write up of a children’s short story which is published in this month internal newsletter for our children studying at the centers. Gosh, my temper is boiling!

To top it all of, I was constantly told to help out in photocopying and scanning of the worksheets (done by the students) into soft copies. Can anyone imagine my working life - as a brand associate but doing none of the branding activities! For now, I will try my best to find a job so as to leave this position asap.

A lesson learned – Never to accept a job offer for the sake of $$$$ and do consider very CAREFULLY before signing the CONTRACT.